My journey as an empath started when my bestie shared with me a book written by Dr Judith Orloff, ‘The Empath Survival Guide’. She said that after reading the book, she felt that the contents relates so much to me. On August 4, 2019, I learnt a new term ‘Empath’. There was a lot of ‘ahhh’, ‘ohhh’ moments when I read the book. I am able to relate to what was written and started to understand why I feel the way I felt for many years. I was asked how do you feel as now there is a name for what you have been undergoing everyday? It is like pulling a blindfold from my eyes. Suddenly things begin to make a lot of sense — my experiences, thoughts, feelings and interactions with others can finally been seen.
It brings me back to recall all the ‘intuitions’ I felt over the years..My first ‘intuition’ came when I was very young, where I felt that I was not in the circle of my family, I felt I was standing alone out of the family circle and later in years, I discovered I was adopted.
Throughout the years, many times I just know things and is able to read a person’s character just by looking at them even if they are strangers. I have been asked who do i know this or that, my answer was I just know, the information just come to me for no apparent reason. I can’t explain..I have always thought that I have a very strong guts feel on things and good at analysing body languages, little did I know that it was a great gift that has yet to be discovered.
Over the years, I was face labels; I was over analysing things, over feeling, finding faults and only looking at the negative sides. I lost my self confident and has always wonder why my life is full of obstacles and I felt more drained as I got older. I was at the edge of depression when I connected back with my bestie, who is a psychologist. At last, I have discovered a label that actually fits, and I can tell you it does feel GOOD! I have a new-found identity, an updated sense of self, and a belief that I can now being to explore my inner and outer workings with more confidence and knowledge. I do believe that things happened for a reason :)
I remembered when i was in my early teens, my maternal grandmother passed away, and I was sleeping in her room. Was I afraid, oh yes I remember I was very scared all right. Not long I had a dream, and in my dream my grandmother told me about a jade pendant that she kept in a container in the cupboard that was in the room. In the morning, I told my uncle and we searched for it and yes you guessed right...we found a jade pendant inside the container!! Uncle gave me and said grandmother wanted me to have it. I felts so loved.
What is an Empath, you may ask. “Empaths are highly sensitive, finely tuned instruments when it comes to emotions. They feel everything, sometimes to an extreme, and are less apt to intellectualize feelings. Intuition is the filter through which they experience the world. Empaths are naturally giving, spiritually attuned, and a good listeners. If you want heart, empaths have got it. Through thick and thin, they’re there for you, world-class nurturers” as explained by Dr Judith Orloff.
When I first read this, I was like ‘Hell no! I am not a good listener, I talk too much! and definitely not spiritual. I recalled saying this to my bestie, ‘That would be the day if I were to be spiritual and meditate!’ I am a person who likes to be busy all the time, I am a person who multitask — sitting down quietly is not me at all!!
I started to trawl the internet searching for more informations and discovered thousands and thousands of empathic individuals exist. There is a feeling of belonging — something I rarely felt up until this point. I am what they call a ‘Claircognizance’ and 'Clairvoyance' Empath. As a species, we have five senses that we rely on : sight, hearing, smell, touch and taste. Yet we have four more senses to supplement those. They are known as ‘the clairs’: clairvoyance (clear vision), clairaudience (clear hearing), clairsentience (clear feeling), and claircognizance (clear knowing). They are the metaphysical senses — they don’t need a neurological pathway like our main senses do.
Well, things took a turn in just 2.5 months, my vocabulary begin to expand. Words and phrases such as lightworker, intutive empath, grounding, smudging, shielding, vibrations, universal energy, spirit guide and many more, now become a commonplace in my mental and verbal dialogue. Getting a good or bad vibe from people without even having to speak to them is something I now understand, as is my dislike of crowded places and bad news stories. Never like to read the news.
I took up meditation — I love visualisation meditation. I learnt about chakras and now am meditating with my healing crystal stones and loving them. This journey took me even more deeper into the path when I met Janice whom I bought the crystals from and then lead me to Adeline, a physic and medium. It was talking with Adeline that open even more discoveries about myself — the real me. Adeline provided me with lots of answers. I was also curious who/what was my spirit guide, had a strong urge wanting to know and she provided me the answer — Wolf is my primary spirit guide. She said that things will start escalating now that I have spoken to her. True enough, this morning I have a deep urge to start writing. I was told that writing is my venue to more discovery of my true self.
I look forward to more wonderful discoveries and my spiritual path. I beginning to feel a ‘little’ peace in my heart. A feel of relieved that I finally found my true self. Let the journey begins…
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